Ch-ch-ch-changes Two of Disks (Pentacles)
Position 2, Situation
I know that some of us have a distaste for Aleister Crowley and there are some good reasons for that. His Thoth Deck was the one I learned on and I am partial to it. The art is fantastic. It’s all very intentional but emotionally evocative at the same time. My friends and clients always pick up the cards and look into them and often derive new meaning. This is particularly true of the 2 of Disks (Pentacles). Thoth takes the act of the juggle depicted in Rider-Waite and makes it the focus of the card.
I think this is important because it might be easy to focus on the juggler who could be then seen as the Fool. With the juggler, he is calling the shots, he is acting in order to keep the balls in check. I don’t think that’s what this card is about at all. It’s about the tension of the juggle itself. There is always a question as to whether those balls are going to stay up and it requires complete attention on the part of the juggler until it is second nature to him.
I have been contemplating the act of the juggle today and how it fits with the Hanged Man who I pulled yesterday. That moment of the juggle is contained within an infinity sign and it, like the act of hanging upside down, are both such intense moments in time, so intense that they last both an eternity and a blink of an eye. This is how the big moments work. Yes it may seem like an eternity within a moment but at a certain point these moments are filed in the narrative of one’s life with all other past moments.
The two of pentacles introduce another thing (object, item, matter) to the first thing that we found in the Ace. Between those things were are asked to redefine the first thing in terms of the other so that they don’t collide and that we don’t drop them. That can be an often insurmountable task. Some people are pretty keen on holding on to their world views but this will come at a cost. Unless you constantly make accomodations things as new things are introduced (which they always are) you will have a mess on your hands. All of those balls–situations, people, objects experiences– will clatter to the ground. No more juggle.
This also means accepting something that is different, once we actually experience it, than it was when we were contemplating it. The juggler must deal with the reality of the pentacles he has. An experienced juggler will know how to handle those particular pentacles and adapt for variations but still has to maintain flexibility when changes present themselves. For a beginner, the act of learning this is kind of traumatic.
But fortunately, as organic beings, we tend toward self-harmony or homeostasis. On a psychological level, this includes matching our idea of reality with reality how it presents itself to us–adjusting to the new ball or a bad throw. And in the act of the juggle we participate fully in the overarching themes of the universe–that of adaptation for the purposes of survival and in order to thrive. And sometimes we drop the balls which is OK too, sometimes they collide with each other and every once in awhile, especially during practice, we hit ourselves in the faces.
Things I ask myself:
What is there that I can’t control?
What can I do to relinquish my need to control it?
How do I prepare for the unknowable?
What is my attachment to what I already have? How can I release old ways of thinking that have become problematic?